the new julie

It was strange visiting school. This sense of being back but not truly being apart of everything had me at a strange feeling of disconnection that was somewhat exhilarating. I tend to hold myself back or take too long to open up, waiting for the knowledge that those around me wont judge me for some of my unusual characteristics, but being back was like I didn't have to worry about any of that because i was just going to leave them in a few short days. Anyways, it was nice to be outgoing right off the get-go with the new people I did meet while I was there.

And one of the people I did meet while I was there happened to be JON FREAKEN PETER LEWIS!!! formally the love of my life, Top ten American Idol contestant who goes to BYUI. I saw him across the bar at Sammy's, instantly lost my appetite due to nerves, and got the gumption and walked over to meet him.

The conversation went something like this:
"...s-s-orry to bother you. I'm Julie. (awkward pause) I really like your music" (awkward puase)
I think once he realized what I was trying to communicate with him a wave a recognition went over his face and he smiled and wiped the grease off his hands and shook my hand.
The conversation got better as my nerves cooled down a tad. I just regret not telling him he was the love of my life.

The old Julie would have just stayed sitting their eating her burger and fries while the love of her life sat right across the room. The old Julie would never have even considered the notion of walking across the quiet restaurant and having everybody listen to what would be a semi awkward conversation.

What next? I don't know what new doors this new Julie will open. I'm seeing an optimistic and bright new future.